Collecting Collections

So, does the title sound right?

Haha..

I think so. Recently that is what I've been doing. I've been gathering all of my works into one book. I wanted to make sure that I have a copy of all of them.

I don't really have much to say.
If I have to think of everything that I can talk about, then I guess I can start with MUET.

Yeah, I have recently taken the test and it was surprisingly easy yet hard in a way. Also, the tale is that I didn't take my speaking test at the test centre I was assigned to.

I took it somewhere else and I thought I was going to be all like too shy to talk to anyone there. The opposite happened.

We were informed of our groups and we sat together. We started to discuss on what to do and we decided to practice together on speaking and it was cool.

I was able to talk to them freely even though it feels like that was all an act. Of course, I knew it wasn't going to last. Our bond, I mean. Yeah, we bonded, but the possibility of seeing each other and actually getting along in real life was really low.

So, I decided to get along for the test and completely forget about them. Obviously, it is very unsuccessful.

I still do remember them. Oh!!!!!!!
Funny thing was that they were younger than me!!!!
No one realized this until they asked me what I was taking.

Haha...
They were shocked to know that I was older than them.

Anyway, for the writing test of MUET, I decided to take it at the test centre I was assigned to and I was utterly shocked to see a certain flower there.

I was so sure I wasn't going to see anyone anymore for a really long time and suddenly I saw her. Lilies.
Yeah, I purposely spelled the name of the flower. I don't know how to spell her name.

But, yeah, that's who I met there. I was shocked but the thing is I only knew her; I wasn't that close to her.

So, yeah. That's what happened. Now I just have to wait for the result.

I hate waiting!!!

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 So, All The Best and. . .

Roger and Out. . .

Sincerely,
CKSalmaICM

New life! New adventures!

Hello people of the world!!!
I am back!

Actually, I could have started blogging again sooner but it never crossed my mind until recently.
I guess you're all wondering what has been going on in this not-so-entertainng life of mine.

Well, first of, I have finally finished my Diploma (YAY!!!!!) and I'm currently taking the MUET test so I could pursue my studies in Degree level.

My speaking test was yesterday and it went well, I guess. My group couldn't conclude our discussion though because all of our points have their advantages and disadvantages also, the main reason is because my group only consists of three people in it (including me).

The part that I didn't like the most when we were discussing (before our test) is when they finally found out that I was 2 years older than them. After that they were like "Sorry, we didn't mean to be rude," and stuff.

They were shocked!!!

Anyway, speaking test went well and now I have to wait for the 8th of November for my reading, writing and listening test.

Okay.

New life! New adventures!

Why?

Because I am officially 20 and well. . . I don't know...

*sigh*

Right!

I am definitely going to start exercising more and dance more. That's what I meant with new life! new adventures!

My youngest sister is going to join me in this quest for a new healthy life and I am proud of her.

Did you know that she got sick really bad recently and I thought it was completely over for her?
Now, she finally realizes the importance of staying healthy.

Singing may not be my forte but who says I can't learn to sing?
That will take time though so, don't hope for me singing any time soon.

Also, I'm currently writing a new story entitled "Wolf-less". This story is about a werewolf girl but she doesn't have her wolf which makes her unable to shift. Find out more when I finally have at least 10 chapters of this story. Currently there is only one chapter. I'm still writing chapter 2 but don't worry because I can write this story.

I don't know why but it almost seem so easy for me to write this story. That's why I'm going to concentrate on this story and if I have ideas for my other stories then I will write them.

What else?

I have no idea what else to say.
If I have anything to say then I will blog it...

So, All The Best and. . .

Roger and Out. . . .

Sincerely,
CKSalmaICM

Final Decisions!

I don't know what led me back to the website Quizilla but I'm glad I went back there. I found my old version of "My Last Wishes" and immediately fell in love with it again. I started thinking; why did I ever decided to rewrite this story?

I guess I was lucky that I was able to find the old version of "My Last Wishes". If didn't find it, then I wouldn't have a single clue what the story was really all about. So, now we finally start the main reason for this blog entry -which is the first entry for 2014 and the first one after a really, really, really, really long time.

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HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!! 2014!!!

Okay, that's done!

I have finally  decided that I will be writing whatever I feel like writing. Currently, I am able to continue writing "The First Phoenix" and I am also planning on changing the title because it feels weird. Even though I'm having trouble finishing the first chapter, I'm going to go slow this time.

I finally understand what my lecturer says about being too ambitious. I've always thought that I wasn't being ambitious about what I do but the reason I'm writing this down now proves me wrong. I have been more than ambitious with everything I do.

So, now I'm going to take everything slow; one at a time. The only thing that I am able to write constantly are poems. I guess it is the easiest type of writing there is. I have about 40 poems now and I'm collecting them all, editing when I have a spare time and writing more whenever I feel like expressing myself more.

Nowadays, my poems are getting more personal and it is truly what I feel in my heart at the time I was writing the poem. It might keep getting more personal from now on since I'm facing a lot of conflicts now. I don't know. One of the perks of being a wallflower?

Yeah, I've watched the movie and I loved it. It speaks to me in a way I never thought a movie could speak. Also, the movie can relate to me easily since I am an introvert; just like Charlie, in the movie. I want to turn my life around but I never had the courage to do so.

Watching the movie made me want to just take a chance and just do it. But, of course, I still haven't done anything to change my life. It's still the same. I guess there is nothing to motivate me enough to do something different in my life.

The only thing different about this year would be the fact that I will turn 20 in 5 months. That's it. I'm old! Is what I keep saying to my sisters whenever I remember I'm turning 20. I know. Pathetic, right?

I'm getting older but nothing ever change. It's just my age that's getting higher but it doesn't affect me in any way at all. The only thing that changes as I am aware of my age are the responsibilities I have to bare. I don't want to think too much about it but that's how it's going to be.

Okay, I feel like we're straying off topic or maybe not. I'm not quite sure.

Anyway, this year I'm just going to do everything; my novels, poetry or anything that relates to writing, slowly and whenever I really feel like writing something. If I force myself to write, it usually turns out to be not as good as when I just have the feeling of writing something.

Also, I have decided to not rewrite something if I'm not even sure what will happen to the story. "My Last Wishes" for example: I'm starting to regret ever thinking of rewriting the story but it did give me new ideas for the story now. I guess it's not really that bad.

I mean, everything happens for a reason, right?

So, since I have no idea what else to say, I'm just going to end this entry with the latest poem I have written.
Hope you like it. :)


No Regrets

I used to be brave,

Always speaking my mind,

Now I have lost my voice,

Left in my childhood.

I cannot go back now,

Those days are gone,

I have to walk along this road,

The road I never meant to take.

Regrets are way pass me,

There is no time for that,

I guess this is what it feels like,

To live in my dream.

As time flies by,

I never looked back,

Sometimes I wish I did,

But the wall is still there.

I guess I will never know,

What it would feel like,

To really live my life,

In this endless parade.

Take a look at me now,

Do I seem happy to you?

Is that why you never bothered?

To ask if I was okay.

Don’t let it fool you,

If you knew what I mean,

Don’t let yourself fall,

If you still believe in me.

Please take a chance with me,

You know what your conscience say,

Don’t let me look pass the horizon,

Because it will never mean anything.

I have no regrets, that is true,

That’s why I will say this without hesitation,

You may have known me from long ago,

But you will never really know me from now on.