Collecting Collections

So, does the title sound right?

Haha..

I think so. Recently that is what I've been doing. I've been gathering all of my works into one book. I wanted to make sure that I have a copy of all of them.

I don't really have much to say.
If I have to think of everything that I can talk about, then I guess I can start with MUET.

Yeah, I have recently taken the test and it was surprisingly easy yet hard in a way. Also, the tale is that I didn't take my speaking test at the test centre I was assigned to.

I took it somewhere else and I thought I was going to be all like too shy to talk to anyone there. The opposite happened.

We were informed of our groups and we sat together. We started to discuss on what to do and we decided to practice together on speaking and it was cool.

I was able to talk to them freely even though it feels like that was all an act. Of course, I knew it wasn't going to last. Our bond, I mean. Yeah, we bonded, but the possibility of seeing each other and actually getting along in real life was really low.

So, I decided to get along for the test and completely forget about them. Obviously, it is very unsuccessful.

I still do remember them. Oh!!!!!!!
Funny thing was that they were younger than me!!!!
No one realized this until they asked me what I was taking.

Haha...
They were shocked to know that I was older than them.

Anyway, for the writing test of MUET, I decided to take it at the test centre I was assigned to and I was utterly shocked to see a certain flower there.

I was so sure I wasn't going to see anyone anymore for a really long time and suddenly I saw her. Lilies.
Yeah, I purposely spelled the name of the flower. I don't know how to spell her name.

But, yeah, that's who I met there. I was shocked but the thing is I only knew her; I wasn't that close to her.

So, yeah. That's what happened. Now I just have to wait for the result.

I hate waiting!!!

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 So, All The Best and. . .

Roger and Out. . .

Sincerely,
CKSalmaICM

New life! New adventures!

Hello people of the world!!!
I am back!

Actually, I could have started blogging again sooner but it never crossed my mind until recently.
I guess you're all wondering what has been going on in this not-so-entertainng life of mine.

Well, first of, I have finally finished my Diploma (YAY!!!!!) and I'm currently taking the MUET test so I could pursue my studies in Degree level.

My speaking test was yesterday and it went well, I guess. My group couldn't conclude our discussion though because all of our points have their advantages and disadvantages also, the main reason is because my group only consists of three people in it (including me).

The part that I didn't like the most when we were discussing (before our test) is when they finally found out that I was 2 years older than them. After that they were like "Sorry, we didn't mean to be rude," and stuff.

They were shocked!!!

Anyway, speaking test went well and now I have to wait for the 8th of November for my reading, writing and listening test.

Okay.

New life! New adventures!

Why?

Because I am officially 20 and well. . . I don't know...

*sigh*

Right!

I am definitely going to start exercising more and dance more. That's what I meant with new life! new adventures!

My youngest sister is going to join me in this quest for a new healthy life and I am proud of her.

Did you know that she got sick really bad recently and I thought it was completely over for her?
Now, she finally realizes the importance of staying healthy.

Singing may not be my forte but who says I can't learn to sing?
That will take time though so, don't hope for me singing any time soon.

Also, I'm currently writing a new story entitled "Wolf-less". This story is about a werewolf girl but she doesn't have her wolf which makes her unable to shift. Find out more when I finally have at least 10 chapters of this story. Currently there is only one chapter. I'm still writing chapter 2 but don't worry because I can write this story.

I don't know why but it almost seem so easy for me to write this story. That's why I'm going to concentrate on this story and if I have ideas for my other stories then I will write them.

What else?

I have no idea what else to say.
If I have anything to say then I will blog it...

So, All The Best and. . .

Roger and Out. . . .

Sincerely,
CKSalmaICM

Final Decisions!

I don't know what led me back to the website Quizilla but I'm glad I went back there. I found my old version of "My Last Wishes" and immediately fell in love with it again. I started thinking; why did I ever decided to rewrite this story?

I guess I was lucky that I was able to find the old version of "My Last Wishes". If didn't find it, then I wouldn't have a single clue what the story was really all about. So, now we finally start the main reason for this blog entry -which is the first entry for 2014 and the first one after a really, really, really, really long time.

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HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!! 2014!!!

Okay, that's done!

I have finally  decided that I will be writing whatever I feel like writing. Currently, I am able to continue writing "The First Phoenix" and I am also planning on changing the title because it feels weird. Even though I'm having trouble finishing the first chapter, I'm going to go slow this time.

I finally understand what my lecturer says about being too ambitious. I've always thought that I wasn't being ambitious about what I do but the reason I'm writing this down now proves me wrong. I have been more than ambitious with everything I do.

So, now I'm going to take everything slow; one at a time. The only thing that I am able to write constantly are poems. I guess it is the easiest type of writing there is. I have about 40 poems now and I'm collecting them all, editing when I have a spare time and writing more whenever I feel like expressing myself more.

Nowadays, my poems are getting more personal and it is truly what I feel in my heart at the time I was writing the poem. It might keep getting more personal from now on since I'm facing a lot of conflicts now. I don't know. One of the perks of being a wallflower?

Yeah, I've watched the movie and I loved it. It speaks to me in a way I never thought a movie could speak. Also, the movie can relate to me easily since I am an introvert; just like Charlie, in the movie. I want to turn my life around but I never had the courage to do so.

Watching the movie made me want to just take a chance and just do it. But, of course, I still haven't done anything to change my life. It's still the same. I guess there is nothing to motivate me enough to do something different in my life.

The only thing different about this year would be the fact that I will turn 20 in 5 months. That's it. I'm old! Is what I keep saying to my sisters whenever I remember I'm turning 20. I know. Pathetic, right?

I'm getting older but nothing ever change. It's just my age that's getting higher but it doesn't affect me in any way at all. The only thing that changes as I am aware of my age are the responsibilities I have to bare. I don't want to think too much about it but that's how it's going to be.

Okay, I feel like we're straying off topic or maybe not. I'm not quite sure.

Anyway, this year I'm just going to do everything; my novels, poetry or anything that relates to writing, slowly and whenever I really feel like writing something. If I force myself to write, it usually turns out to be not as good as when I just have the feeling of writing something.

Also, I have decided to not rewrite something if I'm not even sure what will happen to the story. "My Last Wishes" for example: I'm starting to regret ever thinking of rewriting the story but it did give me new ideas for the story now. I guess it's not really that bad.

I mean, everything happens for a reason, right?

So, since I have no idea what else to say, I'm just going to end this entry with the latest poem I have written.
Hope you like it. :)


No Regrets

I used to be brave,

Always speaking my mind,

Now I have lost my voice,

Left in my childhood.

I cannot go back now,

Those days are gone,

I have to walk along this road,

The road I never meant to take.

Regrets are way pass me,

There is no time for that,

I guess this is what it feels like,

To live in my dream.

As time flies by,

I never looked back,

Sometimes I wish I did,

But the wall is still there.

I guess I will never know,

What it would feel like,

To really live my life,

In this endless parade.

Take a look at me now,

Do I seem happy to you?

Is that why you never bothered?

To ask if I was okay.

Don’t let it fool you,

If you knew what I mean,

Don’t let yourself fall,

If you still believe in me.

Please take a chance with me,

You know what your conscience say,

Don’t let me look pass the horizon,

Because it will never mean anything.

I have no regrets, that is true,

That’s why I will say this without hesitation,

You may have known me from long ago,

But you will never really know me from now on.

Aching Heart

Aching Heart

I don't know why,
This feeling is haunting me,
I just want to cry,
Every time you leave me be.

My heart is aching,
Please make it stop,
Can't you hear me screaming?
Right here on your rooftop.

Until today my poems are pointless,
Maybe it's because I've lost my heart,
Now you see me as a mess,
So, please don't tear me apart.

Listen when I talk,
Because I won't say it again,
Time for me to take a walk,
Alone in this pouring rain.


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heheeheheheheehehehehee
Somehow a poem came out when I was listening to We Are Broken by Paramore!!!

Anyway, tell me what you think...
Feedbacks are much appreciated...

So, All The Best and. . .

Roger and Out. . .  .

Sincerely,
CKSalmaICm

3rd Semester!!

:) :D :P ;) ;D ;P

It's been a month since my third semester and so far it's been pretty uneventful. (Well, if you don't count the Karyaone day; it was cool. I guess.)

In this semester, what I've found out is that two courses would require me to do a pitching. I'm already dreading that day. .

Why??

Well, I don't exactly have any idea to pitch and I'm in no mode to think of one. This is really bad. Oh, and in Creative and Critical Thinking course, we'll have a showcase! Yay!

I'm not really looking forward to it but if I'm in the right group (or with the people who aren't too ambitious) then maybe I'll really enjoy this course..

Oh, NO!!!!!

I lost my writing mode too early!!

*sigh*

This may be short but at least I updated my blog, right?
Anyway, since I don't know when will I be in a writing mode again or have something interesting to tell, then don't really hope for an update so fast.
I guess I have to stop here now.

So, All The Best and. ..

Roger and Out. .

Sincerely,
CKSalmaICM

Like FINALLY, right???

Hey, long time no see.
Well, that's mainly my fault. I haven't been around lately. I could've updated my blog any time I want but I didn't.
To say that I've lost interest in writing is so dead wrong!!

I will never lose interest in something I'm passionate about!
But. . . . .

*gasp*

NO!
I didn't lose interest in writing!!
I have interest towards other things too now and it kind of made me stop writing for a moment.
Currently, I have a few modes that will occur from time to time...

1st mode - Writing Mode : This is when I can definitely write so many things that are just awesome! (Not bragging, this is base on my observation and feedbacks I get from people who have read my work)

2nd mode - Reading Mode : This is when I will surf the e-book community to find many different kinds of books to read. I could hours and hours of reading without getting bored.

3rd mode - Drawing Mode : This is when I will search for anime characters or any kinds of pictures to draw and usually my drawings would turn out great.

4th mode - Singing Mode : This is when, well, all I want to do is sing. Too bad nobody in this room actually wants to hear me sing so I would usually try to overcome this mode. (Bad, feels so bad)

5th mode - Dancing Mode : Okay. . . I admit I rarely get into this mode but when I do, I can't do anything about it because then people will question me and stuff. I admit I'm afraid of their judgement but still sometimes I just really have to ignore this mode. (No matter how much I love it)

6th mode - Learning/Thinking/Researching/Curious Mode : Basically, this is when I became a total nerd and actually study and search for new knowledge. :P (Yeah, I have my nerdy side)

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And that sums up everything. If you still haven't guessed it yet, I'm kind of in a writing mode. Just enough to actually make me update my blog.

So, I'll let you in on what's been going on with all the stories I'm writing.
Uh.. They're going great. I know I'm not being enthusiastic about it but it is going great.
And also, I have a new idea that I feel I should concentrate on this idea first.

What's different about this story is that I was inspired to write it by a song from a Youtuber.
Shadow by Sam Tsui.
Great song!! I love it with all my heart!
Plus, this story is going to be in the guy's POV. Something I've never done before. Which is why I'm observing the boys a bit too much. (Sounds like a creeper/stalker?? I know)

Anyway, I want to concentrate on this story first because I feel strongly towards the song and I already have every chapter in my head. I'm currently stuck only because I can't of a name for this guy character (not the main character).

But, so far, I'm not giving up on the story. I actually want to finish it.
Uh... I'm losing my writing mode.. No spirit left in me to write.
:(

Anyway, I'll try to update again when I can. I mean, just because I'm not in a writing mode, doesn't mean I don't have anything to tell, right?

So, I have to end it here before my hands starts to complain...

All The Best and.. . .

Roger and Out. ..

Sincerely,
CKSalmaICM

Part Of My Journal #10

TUESDAY . 2 APRIL 2013

Well, I guess now is a good time to say. . . Second semester has officially ended!! Well, to me it is.. XP

I only have one more paper to take tomorrow and I'm done!! I can finally go home!! :D
I'm so excited!! Why?

Because I'm finally going to get my driver's license! Yay!
Oh, and before I forget. . . Here is a little update  on my stories...

My Last Wishes

I'm supposedly writing a re-write for this story and so far I'm almost done with the first chapter. I'm going to start posting it on wattpad as soon as I have finished writing the first chapter. From there, I'm hoping to be able to get feedback from anyone who's reading it and give me your support in continuing to write the story.

Because without your support, I might not be able to write any further. :(
And that is just awful of me.
So, stay tuned for this story...

The First Ten ~ Book 1 ~ The First Phoenix

There will be a total of ten books for this story. I know.. A little too ambitious? But, I'm not going to write everything on my own. For the first book, yes, I'm going to write it on my own. Wait, before I go there, let me explain what this book will be about.

There will be ten books because in this book I will tell the story of all the first kinds.. ??
What kind??

Well, as you can see for the first book, it's about the first phoenix. NO. Not the bird but a human. The bird will be there too but the story is about this girl.

Okay. The ten first are:
1. First Phoenix
2. First Reaper
3. First Werewolf
4. First Vampire
5. First Witch
6. First Wizard
7. First Elf
8. First Dwarf
9. First Fairy
10. First Half blood

Yeah... That's it.. I want to write this book first because it's actually going to have more books coming out of it.. I know!! TOO AMBITIOUS!!

But, I have to do this! My brother and I. . .yes.. The person who will be helping writing this story is my brother..  We have a story idea and we feel that we can never understand how story will be if we don't start from it's root.

YES!! You figured it out! The First Ten is the root. We want to understand the story, hence, we decided to write a book for the root first and then we'll start from there the books we have planned before.

Enough about it... I'm already stating on chapter 1 for this book and I hope I'll be able to finish soon... :)

I'm Yours, Forever

What the hell??!!!!
Since when have I came up with this idea??
A long time ago when I was still in school.. XP

This story is about a witch (a girl, obviously) and a vampire (a guy. Thank you Captain way-too-obvious!!) who is in love..
 Awwwwwwwweeeee......
 Not!!

They used to be in love. Anyways, I really can't explain the whole story because I'm actually trying to change the plot a little bit. I can only say...NO... The witch and the vampire won't get back together! That's too cliche.. :P

So, get that thought out of your head! >_<

If you're wondering if this story is somehow related to The First Ten, NO! It's not... I don't plan on writing some sappy love story for this epic-way-too-many-books-to-be-written thing. There will be a little love here and there.

But, can you tell me any action or adventurous movie or book that doesn't have any love in it??? Any kind of love at all.. ^_^
You can't... :P

Okay. That's going over board! Anyways, I'd advice you not to wait for this story because I haven't really thought of what the story will be about really and how it will go.

Last but not least!! The last book I have recently come up with and totally loving that I came up with this idea because I actually want this to happen to me! Too bad it can't!  >_<

My Secret Love

:D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D

No vampires! No witches! No phoenix! No magic! No supernatural stuff! No action! No adventure!
Just simply a love story you'll never find in this world!

Or maybe you can...... *in deep thought*

Anyways, this story is about a girl who has been keeping a secret from everyone about this secret love of hers. After a tragedy, she blank out of the world and she hasn't been herself. After a long while of suffering she finally decided to tell her friend about her secret love. What happened between her and this love of hers that caused her to block out everything from herself?

Sound interesting enough?? ^_^

I seriously love that I actually came up with a love story idea! I can tell you now that I've never been in love but I know exactly how to write this story.

I'm already starting with the story and I hope I'll finish the firs chapter soon. I'd say stay tune for this one too!!

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Too many stories??? Too ambitious???
I think I like the idea that I have these many ideas for a story because I really want to write again and I'm going on overdrive just because I'm so excited about all of my story!

If you still don't know where to find this story of mine, here's a link to it!!

http://www.wattpad.com/user/Leonne_Moonlight

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I think that's it and yeah, I'm going to start on all of this story again when I get back home!! KL!! Wait for your beloved citizen!!

Hheheeeheheheheheheeheh

So, All The Best and.. . .

Roger and Out. . .

CKSalmaICM