Part Of My journal #4

Hey! How's it going?!

*angry mobs come running towards me with pitch forks and fire*

Me : I'm sorry, I'm sorry!! I've been busy lately! Don't kill me! (while running away)

~~~~~~~

TUESDAY 11 DECEMBER 2012

Yes, I have been the WORST blogger in history! I know I haven't blogged about anything at all for a few months now... So, from now on, I'm just going to share mostly of my journal...

I'm not going to be able to post my short stories because I actually lost them. Yes, all of them. And I didn't even have a copy of the work! I sulked the whole day knowing I just lost my work and I will never get it back.

 I will try my best to re-write it... I'll make sure I finish it and immediately post it.

You probably would have never known this but I've finished my first semester and now I'm in my second semester. I finished my first semester on October. I just started my second semester and yeah, no assignments yet... YET!!

So far, I've met five of my lecturers and one of them is the same lecturer I had last semester. Oh, and for my One Act Drama course, we're going to do a One Act Play.. This is so exciting!! And I actually have people I've never group with!!

The group leader told me that I will be one of the characters in the play -which means I will need to act-. Yay! I'm going to do something I've never done before again! Oh, and since I've started dancing, I've been addicted to it.

I started searching for dance tutorial and stuff like that... I'm currently learning Gee by SNSD. I already got half the dance move... I'm having so much fun doing so...

I just recently got myself a Skype too... If you want it, just ask for it. I'm rooming with seven other people.

Is there anything else that I still have to let you know. Updates that you haven't heard about?? I passed my exam last semester.

You know what? It's easier if you ask me questions... I'll definitely answer all of it! So, just ask me anything you want..

So, All The Best and....

Roger and Out... :D

Oh, I'm addicted to K-pop now!! :P hehehe

Everyday

Assalamualaikum....

Hey, I just wrote a new poem.... Yeah, I know... Too fast ????

Anyway, hope you like it... Please comment... :D

~~~~~~

Everyday,

Is torture when I say,

'You are not for me',

While my heart ache for you to be.

Everyday,

Is painful with you away,

When all I want from you,

Is to be near me like you always do.

Every minute,

Reminds me about our limit,

How I can never express this correctly,

But I hope you understand me.

Every night,

I wonder where is my light,

Now I know it's not from your love,

But from up above.

I hope you can understand,

I can never accept your hand,

For there are boundaries between you and me,

Just like it always will be.

Please forget me,

For it will make things easy,

For me to forget,

My crush on you and what I can never get.

~~~~~~~~~

A/N : Heheheheeehe... Hope you like it.... :D

So, All The Best and. . . .  

Roger and Out. . . . :D

That Special Something (Working Title)

It's hard to say goodbye,

To someone you loved the most,

It's hard to accept your lost,

And now you're asking "Why?".

Life will hit us with a hard blow,

Life will remind us where we are,

Death is never too far,

Neither is the day after tomorrow.

Someday you'll understand,

That life isn't forever,

Neither is the time we've been together,

Someday all of it will end.

I'm not trying to say,

To forget all the good times,

Neither am I saying that it's a crime,

To fly away.

I wish someone could understand,

What I'm going through,

There has to be one similarity between me and you,

Even though we're from different lands.

This may sound stupid and all,

But I don't care,

Because I just want to play fair,

In this life where I was forced to crawl.

It may not be clear,

But someday you'll find it,

The day when you were still a kid,

Trying hard not to shed a tear.

~~~~~~~~~~

A/N : Last poem for today!!!!!! 

Okaaayyyy.... I'm gonna go and continue on my story.... :D

So, All The Best and. . . 

Roger and Out. . . :D

What Is Life?

I could never understand,

Why life is never fair,

But when I look back to who I am,

I can finally be more aware.

My life may not be great,

But that's the whole point of it,

To go through life without regret,

And to never change a bit.

When we start to complain about life,

We should really be careful,

And to always think twice,

Because there are others who are hurtful.

There are a lot of challenges waiting for us,

But we never know,

Who should we trust,

And who should we follow.

Life is never easy,

But no one said that it's going to be simple,

Life is always tricky,

So you must be careful who you resemble.

~~~~~~~~~

A/N : One more poem and I'm done for today. . . Gonna need to continue working on my story. . .  :D

So, All The Best and. . . 

Roger and Out. . . : D

To My Beloved Mother

I know you didn't give birth to me,

But you're the one who took care of me,

I know I've been so cruel to you,

But the truth is that I love you.

Why is everything that I do,

Is wrong to you,

Why is everything that you say,

Never come to me in a right way.

When I think of you,

I can't stop crying,

Our emotions are changing,

But I will never forget you.

How can I ever deny,

That you can make me fly,

How can I ever deny,

That you can make me touch the sky.

When I'm old enough to understand,

I might get a chance,

A chance to show you,

How much I love you.

~~~~~~~~

A/N : Believe it or not this poem was written on October 27 2011. . Yeah, I know the exact date because I always write the date. . The reason this poem never got uploaded here is because I lost this poem. .

Luckily I found it and I could tell how it disappeared. The poem was written on a piece of paper. I have so many papers, so it's easy for it to vanish. The surprising part is that I found this poem in my file -where I put all other valuable items. O_o

Anyways, let me know what you think of this poem and if I should give this to my mother. .

So, All The Best and. . . 

Roger and Out. . . :D

Dear Father, I Wonder. . .

Okaaaayyyy.... Here's the rest of my poems. . . :D

Dear Father, I Wonder

Dear father,

I have always wondered,

What it would be like,

If you were never right.

Dear father,

I have always wondered,

What it would be like,

If you were never by my side.

Would I be okay?

Would I find my way?

Would I be able to live on?

Knowing a part of my heart is gone.

Dear father,

I never want to wonder,

About the how's and what's,

Even though it's there in my heart.

Dear father,

I hope you're feeling better,

Because I know you're hurting inside,

Whenever I'm not there in time.

I want you to always be happy,

And know that I love you dearly,

I may not be there,

But I hope you know that I care.

Dear father,

I can only wonder,

What if I was wrong,

About how I'm not strong.

Dear father,

Please tell mother,

That I love her too,

Even though this poem is for you.

Be Myself

This is my last poem for today. . . I'll post the rest tomorrow. . :D

Why can't I be myself?

When I know I'm more than this,

Why is everybody else?

Deleting me from their list.

Am I nothing more than an outcast?

Am I just another freak show?

Why can't I stop living in my past?

And just try to let it go.

I wanna be more than what I show,

I wanna be more than this girl,

I wanna try to let this go,

And see what is real.

I'm a girl you will never understand,

I'm a girl that can be anything I wanna be,

I can sail the world and not pretend,

To be someone other than me.

I can show you a whole new world,

And not regret every second of your time,

I can give you all the words,

That can make the perfect rhyme.

I can show you the real me,

I can show you what I could do,

I can tell you what I wanna be,

I can tell you what is true.

Maybe one day I'll find my way,

For me to be myself,

Maybe one day I can break away,

Just like everybody else.

~~~~~~

A/N : Let me know what you think.. . . 

All The Best and. . . 

Roger and Out. . . :D